Thursday, October 14, 2010

Restless

I don't know what it is and I don't know how to explain myself. Every now and then I get this weird feeling that I can't shake off. A need to get out and do something, be with friends, have an adventure, get my fill of some kind of entertainment. I feel crazy, like I am trapped in a box that I can't get out of. My insides are crawling as I am sitting in silence. I need to do something but don't know what it is and everyone is too busy or too lazy. I am loosing my mind. These nights are the hardest to fall asleep. I need to go for a 50 mile run, travel, drive somewhere far and take pictures, calm my mind or at least distract myself. This is the most awful feeling I can have because there is not much I can do on my own and I can overwhelm anyones mood or atmosphere thus making myself feel bad and feel even worse.

I just don't know what to do...

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